It’s been such a busy time. School’s out now. There was graduation, then college orientation, and to top it off I am selling my house. I’ve thought about my blog every day, but just had no time to write. Not that there hasn’t been lots of things to write about and when I am unable to put down in writing my thoughts, they race through my mind like a whirling dervish and I have little peace. Thankfully, as I was confronted with some mind numbing stuff this morning, I made myself sit down and open my laptop. It was either that or have my head explode.
As I watched the news this morning and saw that 19 firefighters lost their lives in a wild fire in Arizona—a special elite group of firefighters that all died together when the fire turned back on them–I was deeply saddened. How very tragic. As an atheist, I think about how nature sucks sometimes and there’s just no making sense of why. It happens—bad stuff happens and there’s no god causing it or able to stop it. Knowing this feels so much better than trying to do mental gymnastics to make sense of a “loving, all-knowing, all powerful god,” allowing or causing such a tragedy to happen. My heart goes out to the families and I hope they have loved ones around them to comfort them in a time when there really is no comfort, just grief.
Unfortunately, I logged on to facebook and was immediately confronted with all the prayer posts. I knew I would be, but it’s all good; “Let them pray,” I thought. Then there was post from one of my facebook friends that sent me over the top. She had lost her ferret on Saturday and then this morning, she found him. She posted, “I found my ferret. Thank you Jesus.” THANK YOU JESUS?! WTF? You simply can’t make this stuff up. First I laughed, then I got angry and the anger grew. It took everything in me not to comment on her post, “Oh, now I know why those firefighters died, God was busy looking for your effing ferret. Jesus must really think you are special.” Why didn’t I? As an atheist I have to think about everything I say. Do they?
Do Christians even think about what they say? As a non-believer it is so upsetting to see and hear Christians say mindless, imbecilic, and insensitive things like what the ferret owner said. Sadly, as an atheist, I cannot say anything back, because suddenly I am a hater. I’m trying to steal people’s faith away. I want to ask her, since she seems to believe that God found her ferret, why he didn’t save those brave young men who were fighting to save others? Of course there would be no answer, unless you count, “It’s just a mystery, or who are we to question god, or our finite minds just can’t comprehend the workings of god.” What a bunch of ignorant BS! If I did ask that question, she would think, “There she goes again. She’s so mean.” You know what? She’s mean–mean,ignorant and delusional! There, I said it.
Christians wonder why atheists seem so angry, and to be honest, we are sometimes, but we don’t start off angry; we honestly don’t. We just want to have the same rights that Christians have when it comes to voicing our opinion, but we don’t and it gets frustrating. When we say something they think is mean, or offensive, they point their fingers at us and say, “See? See? Look how angry and bitter atheists are without God,” but let them say something so utterly ignorant and stupid as “Thank you Jesus for helping me find my ferret, while young fathers, brothers, and husbands burned to death,” and we had just better respect their faith. We just need to be nice, fold our hands and nod our heads with a smile, so they will see we really are nice, caring people. Fuck that. Fuck them.