I was trying to decide which song I wanted to post first and decided on this one. I prefer the EDM version, but for this post, I think this video is better. It’s not really on the unrequited love theme, but definitely love lost—friend and family love.
Listening to this song made me think of all the friends I’d lost and how my mother and sister treated me. In my early posts I wrote of the suffering I went through from the loss. At times it was almost unbearable. I ran and hid. I was always on the offensive and always feeling like I had to be the one to mend those relationships, because I was the bad one—the one who no longer believed.
Of course, at some point I realized that it didn’t matter what I did, I was no longer a Christian and so I no longer had a place at the table—figuratively and literally. They were done with me, but not before they did their “Christian duty.” I love the one line in the song: “Stone hard, machine gun, firing at the ones who run, stone-hard as bulletproof glass.” They do fire at the ones who run, don’t they? Thankfully, I kept running–in a zigzag pattern, of course, as to survive.
Most importantly the song continues to remind me of just how far I’ve come. I’m stronger now—Titanium. Those people can’t hurt me anymore. They may pity me, but they are the ones who should be pitied. They are the ones who now no longer have a place at my table and you know what? It’s their loss.
I’m bullet proof, nothing to lose.