If I could sing a song to the god I had believed in for so long, the god I loved and trusted in—my first real love—it would be the song I have attached below. As my anger toward Christians, and God and religion began to dissipate, I was looking forward to moving on, having all that stuff not matter any more. I had no idea that my anger and angst would be replaced with incredible pain before it was all said and done. It all came to the surface one day as I listened to this song for the first time.
All those nights I begged god to reveal himself to me, and all those prayers I prayed on my knees in the dark, and nothing. Anger would be easier for me at this point, but that is not what I’m left with right now. So be it. I feel a little closer to being completely healed. I kind of always knew that I would have to confront the sorrow at some point, and now I am. So be it. Enjoy the song. I believe it will touch you as well. (Sorry about the ad on the video. It’s worth the wait though)