So, I know I need to write something. My journalism professor said that the only way you can gain and maintain followers on your blog is to write…all the time…ack! I’m such a loser! It’s not that I don’t have tons going on in my head or that there hasn’t been tons of things going on in my life. I love to write. I want to write. I think about posting to my blog all the time, but life has a way of keeping me from writing– kids, school, my pathetic social life :-), the holidays…and the list goes on. I guess I’ve just been overwhelmed. So, let me do a little catch up and then move forward from there, with the commitment to write more regularly.
Well, I’m one more semester closer to getting my degree. I haven’t decided a specific direction as of yet, but I’m going to have to soon. My divorce is final and that, of course, is bitter sweet, although my ex and I remain very good friends. I’ve come out as an ex-Christian more and more and it has been life altering–mostly in a good way as of late anyway. Facebook has been a great tool.(see previous posts) It’s interesting though, the more authentically I live my life, the less and less important it is that I am no longer a Christian. Does that make sense? I certainly don’t want to become so distant from it that I forget what it’s like to go through the process of leaving Christianity. I always want to be there for others who are in the struggle, like others were there for me, but it’s such a small part of who I am, now that I live fully in the secular world. It simply doesn’t define me anymore. There are times when I have to remind myself, “Oh yeah! I was a Christian once!” I never thought that would happen. With that said, I think I’m at a bit of a fork in the road and am not sure which way to go. I believe Robert Frost had the same problem at one time.
I have other de-converted friends that have expressed the same kind crossroads dilemma. I won’t mention any names, Zoe, but I understand their struggle more now. I do have lots of other things I can write about: Going back to school in the midlife years, or going through a divorce and surviving, just to name two. I mentioned earlier that my ex and I are friends and we truly are. I’ve discovered that that is rare in a divorce and I think I have some insight into that whole thing that could help others. I even have a blog/book title: “The Best Revenge.” By the way, if you want to lose a friend…marry them…sorry, but those of you who are married and are honest, you know just what I mean ☺. Oh, and please don’t write and tell me what good friends you and your spouse are—I’m sure you are and I’m very happy for you.
So there you have it. I do have much more to say—shocking, I know—but I’ll leave you with that for now.
Look me up on Facebook (Barbara Schmidt) I’m the one wearing red glasses and holding a baby—that isn’t mine. I would be happy “befriend” you.
Happy New Year!