One of the things that I was concerned about when I made the decision to leave the Christian religion was how it would affect my children. I wasn’t sure what their reaction would be. Would they be devastated, thinking I was now going to hell? Would they try to “save” me? Would it confuse them or hurt them in some way? I would rather die than hurt my kids, but the reality of it is, by teaching them to be closed minded and intolerant to other beliefs and lifestyles except our own had hurt them. I wasn’t sure how I should handle the whole thing.
I certainly didn’t want to sit them down one day and say, “all right now, I want you to know that I’m not a Christian any longer and you shouldn’t be either. Everything I taught you before was a lie.” If I did that, I would be falling into the same error as before; telling them what to think, not showing then how to think.
As my de-conversion unfolded, the reaction of my children completely caught me off guard. I never did sit them down and make some sort of an announcement. They saw me not going to church, they heard conversations and when they asked questions, I would answer them honestly. Because they had been so indoctrinated, I was sure their reactions would be completely different than they were. Maybe my brainwashing skills aren’t what I thought they were. Today I want to focus on just one incident, which has been the most recent one. My youngest daughter has been having her own struggles with church and Christian friends and just what she had observed in them. She had asked me some questions about atheism and agnosticism and I had directed her to some web sites and left her to her own research. The other day, she came to me and asked me to read her most recent blog on Myspace and so I did. I have posted it here just as she had written it. Here it is:
Since I know a lot of my friends on this here Myspace
I have decided to inform you all mostly my Christian friends thatI am officially Agnostic.
If you think this means i’m atheist hahaha NO!
I’m Agnostic which isn’t a religion it’s a belief.
I believe that we don’t know if there is a God and no one knows.
I think the Bible is a source of History, not what I look to for all my answers
I don’t believe Jesus Christ died for my sins. I don’t believe homosexuality is wrong.
I believe no one knows if God created the World slash Universe.
I believe evolution is a good educated theory.
I don’t hate Christians
I see nothing wrong with Christianity I just don’t believe it. Sorry if you think I’m going to hell. If you have something to say to me, I am ready and willing to talk about it
It appears that the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree, but I have to admit the girl has more guts than her mother. After reading her blog, I made the decision to mail a letter I had written to a believing friend; explaining my distance and telling her that I am no longer a Christian. If my 16 year old can be open and honest, shouldn’t I be able to do the same? It is just one letter to one person, but she is a strategic person—believe me, the word will be out soon. Those of you who have come out of Christian fundamentalism know just what that means. So I wait……